I've gone through several internet-persona metamorpheses... When I was young and didn't know any better, I was just 'Carmel'. I then realised that I needed a proper pseudonym, and I was "Wench of the Gods". I was Wench pretty much exclusively for many, many years and like you I have many very close friends that just seem incapable of calling me anything but Wench or Wenchie. I don't mind - it's part of who I am. But, as I got older, I also started to realise that I wasn't really that girl anymore. And now, whilst some of my nearest and dearest will always call me Wenchie, I don't really feel like that person anymore.
It's a strange feeling - but I'm kind of comfy with it. It's a bit like looking back over my highschool year books - I look at the photos of me, and whilst I know that it me smiling out of the grainyt black & white world, it's a me that doesn't even know the people who are my closest friends, who doesn't have the same dreams, hopes or aspirations. So yeah, it's a strange feeling, but not an unpleasant one. I don't really know what precipitated the change, except that Scruffy is the name that Scott has always called me, so maybe it's all his fault... :)
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on 2006-11-27 07:53 am (UTC)It's a strange feeling - but I'm kind of comfy with it. It's a bit like looking back over my highschool year books - I look at the photos of me, and whilst I know that it me smiling out of the grainyt black & white world, it's a me that doesn't even know the people who are my closest friends, who doesn't have the same dreams, hopes or aspirations. So yeah, it's a strange feeling, but not an unpleasant one. I don't really know what precipitated the change, except that Scruffy is the name that Scott has always called me, so maybe it's all his fault... :)