I think I’m back...

[katiefoolery]

I feel normal.  Ish.  For the first time in what seems like weeks.

Of course, we must accept that “normal” is a relative concept.  Normal for me might well be someone else’s “Oh gods, what’s wrong with me and why can’t I stop thinking about apostrophes?”.  Although that’s not strictly fair - I don’t always think about apostrophes.  Sometimes I think about semi-colons, too.  And I often spare a few moments for other elements of punctuation.  I wouldn’t want any of them to feel left out.

So... I feel normal (ish).  The air smells like Summer I didn’t wear a scarf today.  And even though I left a little late this morning, I still got to work on time.  (Is that a positive or not?  It’s a tricky one to call.)  The majority of those points are positive, though, and I correspondingly feel as though I’ve broken out of some dark forest into the blinding sunlight, breathing in the fresh air of the plains and delighting in the open spaces and lack of gloomy, oppressive forces.

And just to carry the metaphor a bit further... even though I feel as though I’m suddenly free, I can't help feeling as though I’ve forgotten something important in that dark, miserable forest.  And I may or may not have picked up a spider of some sort in my hair during my dark-forest-related travels, but I’m not going to check right now.  Too busy enjoying the sunlight and the lack of angst and the fact that I feel like doing things again.

What does this all mean?  I have no idea.  I just wanted to share the quiet joy that’s been slowly building in me over the past two days.  Believe me, it’s far better than sharing the angst and self-pity that I’ve been wallowing in for the past few months.

I know I haven’t been the most active commenter over the past few weeks, but I have been following all of your posts with almost unseemly eagerness.  Which some might call stalking.  I prefer to call it “taking an active interest”.  But I'm afraid this current state of mind means I’m going to be making more of an effort to update and to be more active on LJ.  You’ve been warned.


(And in a side note to the LorFers: I may be writing a new Ryn episode.  You can blame Thom for that.  Or Flit.  Whichever you prefer.)

Comments

[crazedturkey.livejournal.com]

Wheeee....sounds like a good state of being!


And wheeeee! RYN LORF! Yeah!

[bethamphetam1ne.livejournal.com]

You're definitely not the only one coming out of the dark woods . . . I think seasonal adjustment disorder had a lot to do with getting a lot of people down over the last few months. It's nice to feel the sun again.

[gogosama.livejournal.com]

happiness is a goooood thing~ this was a nice post of yours to read. spiders in the hair are actually pretty cool, ne? good luck or something like that. sometimes you're the first one to comment on gogo's fics, so when I don't hear from you for a while, I always worry and wonder if perhaps something is wrong!! it's always good to hear from you, of course.

big hugs to you and hope that you continue with the happy. come visit gogo on her page when you can.

xoxo

[starlingthefool.livejournal.com]

Welcome back to the wide, wide world.
(A funny thing about your metaphor: I live in a state pretty much filled with forests like that, and I rather like them [except for the spiders, but we are NOT going to talk about them]. And whenever I'm in a sunny, flat, plains-type of atmosphere, I get panicky.
Still, I knew what you meant.)
Anyway, YAY for the ongoing mysterious mystery of RYN!

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Oh yes - it's definitely good to be back. I've just felt so weird for the past few weeks and I was well and truly sick of it.

I might try and write the Ryn LorF tonight. I did the graphicy component of it last night, so it's just a matter of padding it out with the right words. :D

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

It's just lovely, isn't it? I fully expect it'll go back to being cold soon enough, but I'm definitely enjoying this little preview of the warmer months.

I really wouldn't like to see how I cope with climates where it actually snows. Hibernation would be the only option there, I think.

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

That was the worst bit about not feeling quite normal - I stopped doing lots of things that I love. I didn't read Bleach for about four weeks in a row. I hardly read any fanfic. But that's going to change! And I'll definitely be visiting your page soon - you recently updated Ways of Binding didn't you? I must catch up on that. :D

[the-kaytinator.livejournal.com]

This is marvellous!!! So glad to hear you're feeling better!!!

And LorF? That can only boost your mood more, surely.

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Hehe, thanks! It's good to be back. :D And I'm glad my metaphor worked, despite our differing attitudes towards dark woods and plains. (It's mostly the spiders and assorted bugs that disturb me there... But, as you say, we're not going to talk about them.)

It's been far too long since Ryn was mysteriously mysterious about her mysterious mystery of mysteriousness. I'm looking forward to continuing that.

[gogosama.livejournal.com]

Indeed! It's a fun chapter. More dialogue. Sorta. XDDD. Some real smut is coming (literally) next chapter.

You can read Ways part 5 here: http://community.livejournal.com/bleach_bdsm/3338.html#cutid2

xoxo!

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

I'm quite pleased about it myself. :D (And all of those exclamation marks are just contributing to my happiness.)

Hopefully, the LorF-writing will help, too. Unless Ryn decides to get all mopey about stuff, as she often does. Although if Thom's involved at all, she usually prefers sarcasm to mopeyness, so I should be right.

[flippyfrog.livejournal.com]

*crash tackle hugs*

And Thom, you can blame Thom, it's never me...

[alankria.livejournal.com]

Yaaaay for joy!

*looks over shoulder* Small voice: Are you watching me now? I... I don't know what to do now I know you're stalking... *wibble*

[sirgallivant.livejournal.com]

Welcome back!

This was indeed a cheering post to read. :)

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Yeah, sure, it's aaaaaaaall Thom's fault.

*thinks about this*

Actually, I accept that completely.

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Oh, just carry on as you were. Try not to think about it over much. :D

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Thank-you muchly, good knight! It certainly was a cheery post to write. :D

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the link! I believe I shall read it right now. :)

[naelany.livejournal.com]

But I'm afraid this current state of mind means I’m going to be making more of an effort to update and to be more active on LJ. You’ve been warned.
Yay!!!! *snugs* I'm glad you're feeling in better spirits, and I'm even gladder to have you back "in the fold" so to speak ^_~. Am looking forward to reading your entries again ^_^

[joyinthedance.livejournal.com]

Aw I love reading posts like this. So glad you're feeling good!

Normal for me might well be someone else’s “Oh gods, what’s wrong with me and why can’t I stop thinking about apostrophes?”.

LOL. I hear you. XD

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Thank-you muchly, good Naelany. It's good to be back. :D

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :) And now I'm trying to remember what I actually used to write posts about - it's been so long! I'm sure it'll all come back to me now I'm feeling a bit more like myself.

[snarkymonkey.livejournal.com]

Yay for normalish! =3

Welcome back, dearheart. ^___^

[flamehail.livejournal.com]

Welcome back! Your metaphors are as lovely as ever.

Oh! And I have a new pet peeve to share with your grammar and punctuation loving heart--Associated Press Style. It is heinous! It oozes wrongness out of its very pores. Please reassure me that emdashes don't have spaces on either side of them, and that album titles, as titles of larger works encompassing smaller works, are italicized or underlined and not put in quotation marks, and that capitalization is not a crime!

I hope your good mood continues--I have heard that happiness is occasionally more enjoyable than angst (although not always).

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Indeed! :D Thank-you muchly.

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Hehe, thanks. :) I am rather fond of going overboard with those metaphors.

I'm afraid all of those things you mentioned depend purely on the style of the particular publication or organisation. Usually, spaces are not required either side of em-dashes, but it's not strictly wrong to have them (although it does look very wrong to me, too). Capitalisation is definitely not a crime! But once again, different styles will dictate different rules as to which types of words are capitalised. When I was studying for my library diploma, I was learning one rule of capitalisation for cataloguing and another for referencing and citations; it could have been terribly confusing.

[naelany.livejournal.com]

You're very welcome ^_^

[seagull-fred.livejournal.com]

Bah @ the weirdness. I'm glad you're feeling better! And your return has reminded me that I must post the meet pics from my camera at some point in the near future.

Would you like a spider-swat for your hair, btw...?

[katiefoolery.livejournal.com]

Thank-you! And yes, you must post those photos! Well, provided I don't look like an idiot in them. :D

I'm hoping the spider will just crawl out by itself, actually. Swatting it might result in an unfortunate, icky mess of spider innards.