I think I’m back...
Aug. 27th, 2007 10:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
katiefooleryI feel normal. Ish. For the first time in what seems like weeks.
Of course, we must accept that “normal” is a relative concept. Normal for me might well be someone else’s “Oh gods, what’s wrong with me and why can’t I stop thinking about apostrophes?”. Although that’s not strictly fair - I don’t always think about apostrophes. Sometimes I think about semi-colons, too. And I often spare a few moments for other elements of punctuation. I wouldn’t want any of them to feel left out.
So... I feel normal (ish). The air smells like Summer I didn’t wear a scarf today. And even though I left a little late this morning, I still got to work on time. (Is that a positive or not? It’s a tricky one to call.) The majority of those points are positive, though, and I correspondingly feel as though I’ve broken out of some dark forest into the blinding sunlight, breathing in the fresh air of the plains and delighting in the open spaces and lack of gloomy, oppressive forces.
And just to carry the metaphor a bit further... even though I feel as though I’m suddenly free, I can't help feeling as though I’ve forgotten something important in that dark, miserable forest. And I may or may not have picked up a spider of some sort in my hair during my dark-forest-related travels, but I’m not going to check right now. Too busy enjoying the sunlight and the lack of angst and the fact that I feel like doing things again.
What does this all mean? I have no idea. I just wanted to share the quiet joy that’s been slowly building in me over the past two days. Believe me, it’s far better than sharing the angst and self-pity that I’ve been wallowing in for the past few months.
I know I haven’t been the most active commenter over the past few weeks, but I have been following all of your posts with almost unseemly eagerness. Which some might call stalking. I prefer to call it “taking an active interest”. But I'm afraid this current state of mind means I’m going to be making more of an effort to update and to be more active on LJ. You’ve been warned.
(And in a side note to the LorFers: I may be writing a new Ryn episode. You can blame Thom for that. Or Flit. Whichever you prefer.)
Of course, we must accept that “normal” is a relative concept. Normal for me might well be someone else’s “Oh gods, what’s wrong with me and why can’t I stop thinking about apostrophes?”. Although that’s not strictly fair - I don’t always think about apostrophes. Sometimes I think about semi-colons, too. And I often spare a few moments for other elements of punctuation. I wouldn’t want any of them to feel left out.
So... I feel normal (ish). The air smells like Summer I didn’t wear a scarf today. And even though I left a little late this morning, I still got to work on time. (Is that a positive or not? It’s a tricky one to call.) The majority of those points are positive, though, and I correspondingly feel as though I’ve broken out of some dark forest into the blinding sunlight, breathing in the fresh air of the plains and delighting in the open spaces and lack of gloomy, oppressive forces.
And just to carry the metaphor a bit further... even though I feel as though I’m suddenly free, I can't help feeling as though I’ve forgotten something important in that dark, miserable forest. And I may or may not have picked up a spider of some sort in my hair during my dark-forest-related travels, but I’m not going to check right now. Too busy enjoying the sunlight and the lack of angst and the fact that I feel like doing things again.
What does this all mean? I have no idea. I just wanted to share the quiet joy that’s been slowly building in me over the past two days. Believe me, it’s far better than sharing the angst and self-pity that I’ve been wallowing in for the past few months.
I know I haven’t been the most active commenter over the past few weeks, but I have been following all of your posts with almost unseemly eagerness. Which some might call stalking. I prefer to call it “taking an active interest”. But I'm afraid this current state of mind means I’m going to be making more of an effort to update and to be more active on LJ. You’ve been warned.
(And in a side note to the LorFers: I may be writing a new Ryn episode. You can blame Thom for that. Or Flit. Whichever you prefer.)
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on 2007-08-28 07:22 am (UTC)